K’s Testimomial

For many years I danced the wicked dance with alcohol and I noticed at a young age that it affected me differently than most people I knew. In the beginning, as I’m sure it is with most people, it romanced me and I viewed it as this magical thing that made everything better. By the time I started to see how badly it had begun to treat me, it was already too late. For years, the past three or four in particular I tried to stop drinking. I tried, I failed, I spiraled, I crashed and I tried again constantly on a never-ending loop. So much so that I thought I was going to go crazy. 

 I’m a very ambitious and driven person and I couldn’t seem to understand how this thing had become the focal point of my whole entire life. How could someone who runs marathons, eats well and has a genuine passion to be fit and healthy do this to themselves again and again? it didn’t make sense to me and I started to resent myself more and more with each failed attempt. I read the books, listened to the podcasts and tried my best to wear the t-shirt but ended up white knuckling it each time and giving in at any slight inconvenience in my life.

 I had hidden the extent of my drinking to most people and I became very good at making others see only what I wanted them to see. As a result, my struggles and pain and failed attempts were all dealt with in private. Finally I reached out to somebody very close to me who had gone through very similar struggles and had successfully stopped drinking. I’m an extremely proud person, but my mental health was suffering so bad at that stage that the only thing worse than finally opening up would be to continue drinking and I could no longer live in that horrible place that alcohol had placed me. 

  This person put me in contact with the wonderful, charming and beautiful person that is Sarah Turner. From the moment I started working with her I no longer felt that I had this enormous weight to carry by myself every single day. Her course made me see alcohol for what it truly was and helped me to stop blaming myself. Through constant contact, I was able to open up to Sarah more about my true feelings than I had ever done with anybody in my life and it was truly liberating. She was like my little secret weapon and my vote of confidence when I didn’t have any in myself. Through her I learned so much about myself and how much I had ignored or kept quiet for so long. In dealing with my struggle with alcohol I was also able to deal with other issues in my life that had been keeping me down for so long. I was finally gaining the confidence to deal with things head on instead of shutting myself down and numbing it out.

 As the weeks progressed, through constant assurance, empathy, understanding and sheer matter-of-factness on Sarah’s part, I started to feel this glow inside of me that is growing stronger day by day. Of course, there are still off days, but nothing compared to the anxiety and stress that was once caused by that poison. Now I have this wonderful tool kit that Sarah has given me to be able to deal with tricky situations and I have learned to love myself enough to not ever want to harm my body or mind again. 

 Sarah is one in a million. It was an honor and privilege to have her in my corner for those 6 weeks. I will never forget what she has done for me and my life and I will be forever grateful.